It's time that I change

It’s been such a long time I haven’t been blogging about anything. When I read back all my blog post I realize I got some grammar issues so I try to work on that if I have more time here. So it’s 2013, this year it’s time I start being a new person because last year I just started thinking of God continuously everyday of my life but unfortunately being the human that I am, I’m still caught up by the material things that are in the world. I can’t change 100% directly but the good news is that I’ve been giving up many things to show I must change (I even burn some of the things believe it or not). I’ve been giving up video games, anime, cosplaying and whatever this world created to make us occupied.

I change but not many are satisfied with my decision. I get fewer friends now than before but at least it shows that they are still willing to be my friend. Before knowing and accepting Jesus into my heart, I was lost and many didn’t help me much when I had a nightmare about the world going to be controlled by darkness. I don’t know whether if it were a sign or just I’ve been watching too much horror movies but what I saw was seriously change my life forever. When I prayed in the dream the demon stop torturing me and I suddenly woke up. Click here to read more .

Then months and months flew by I felt like a new girl. Refresh after finding out the truth. The truth is that this world was made by GOD but humans have corrupted it and some people think the people who made these things are a gift from God. Although our life is easier now to be having many things to make us feel convenient and I believe it’s not wrong but abusing what you have will be.

So on this 2013, I’m going to try and change my outlook. I was a heavy makeup kind of girl covering God’s beauty by applying fake eyelashes, contact lens and so on just to be accepted by society. Then I realize why am I pleasuring others by my fake-ness? I should be pleasuring God but also a bit to myself. I only wear makeup just to cover up my blemishes.

Let's take a look at me without make up.

And this is me with heavy make up.

A lot of different, right?

My boyfriend hate me wearing make up and diet because he's a jealous type and he thinks I'm doing it for people which is partly true. I am thankful to have a boyfriend like him, he does admit I look nice with make-up but he said I look more beautiful without it. Makes me kinda shy, hehe.

So from now onward I will live my life simple. I wont chase something that wouldn't live forever because being with God is the most precious thing ever. So God help me even if there's still criticize me. Hopefully one day I can fully change and become the woman that God and my boyfriend want.